I was so afraid. My childhood was a nightmare and I didn’t know what love was,I didn’t believe in myself. I felt like the thing growing inside me was an alien invading my personal freedom. I was so scared of people’s judgment and my failure as a mom. But, I decided to do what I thought was humane. I took it day by day and asked God for strength and faith and now, I look at Sophia…she’s 7 now…and I can’t believe I could have had her killed. She has the most beautiful soul. She believes in me and loves me the way I’ve never been loved. No one’s ever loved me.she loves me and believes in me. She’s what’s made me press to be the best person I can be and to love myself. I could have made a decision out of fear,but instead I chose faith. It wasn’t easy, it still isn’t, but…I am so grateful I chose to keep Sophia. I love her so much. God is she beautiful.